ACK. I did not think too hard choosing these 30 topics. My mindset was lighthearted and experimental. Maybe my subconscious got a foot in the door, though, as I don’t usually think much about forgiveness, and yet here it appears, on the top half of the list. Huh.

What does this topic bring up for you? My reaction depends on my mood. When I’m feeling good about myself, all equanimatous-like, forgiveness lands lightly, naturally. When I’m feeling inadequate it falls heavy, exacerbating unworthiness and maybe a little anxiety? How fascinating. I’m here for it, though, however it shows up.

How do I do forgiveness well already?
–I think I’m overall a pretty forgiving person. I try to understand others’ perspectives and motivations, and that empathy helps me resist and release grudges.
–I can forgive even after I’ve held a grudge for a while. Just today, on the floor at the gym, thinking about how I could do polarity management better, the biggest duh-HA epiphany in a while hit me smack in the face. And now I feel real forgiveness coming on in a longstanding conflict. Wow.
–I apologize readily, sincerely, clearly, and appropriately; I seek forgiveness when I have wronged someone. It’s not always freely granted, which I do not resent. I know what that resistance feels like, after all. I can find other ways to repair a relationship rupture, and I can be patient.

How could I do forgiveness better?
–Even when my thinking brain knows it’s not all my fault, sometimes my feeling brain continues to self-flagellate. I suffer from this, no doubt, and I also think it’s not good for my relationships, but that impact is subtle and nebulous. This is where my self-compassion skills could be honed a bit more, yes.
–Where else am I withholding forgiveness? What skills do I need to call forth to address this? I’m thinking more of groups now than individuals, the automatic and default assumptions I make about agents of culture, leaders, out groups. How fascinating, the recurring themes this month. Mindfulness, Honesty, Relationships–everything connects to everything else.
–Could I possibly encourage and facilitate forgiveness around me, between people I know in conflict with one another? That feels prickly, like it is neither my responsibility nor my place. Still, I can imagine small opportunities arising in confidence, which I trust myself to sense and respond to –mindfully.

How does society forgive well already?

Rehab. On a collective level for certain things, we have great capacity for forgiveness and re-enfranchisement. It’s beyond the scope of this post to address why we do this more easily for, say, alcoholism than prostitution, or adultery by men more than by women. But I’m glad to see examples of successful societal forgiveness more than I expected. Yay.

Reconciliation. Speaking of adultery..or infidelity… According to the Institute for Family Studies, 53% of people who had cheated in their marriage were married in 2010-2016, though some of these may be remarriages. That’s compared to 70% of people who have never cheated. Of course we cannot generalize about what’s happening in each affected couple and family. But I have observed multiple cases of true reconciliation after infidelity, and that encourages me.

How could we forgive better collectiely?

Reform Crime and Punishment. People who break the law are not necessarily bad people. People who harm others must be held to account, no question. Punishment should fit the crime–it’s not clear to me how much this is true in our society. Certainly incarcerated people should be treated as fully human and given opportunities to re-enter society with a better chance of staying out of jail than when they entered. Even the serial killer, who has forfeited the right to rejoin society, does not deserve to have their humanity taken away by fellow humans. Compassionate and Humane Accountability. What would society look like if we lived these words even a little better?

Mitigate Righteous Moral Judgment. “It’s just wrong.” There are far fewer absolutes in life than most of us think. Past experiences/traumas and volatile circumstances wildly alter our goals and tolerances, too often in ways we cannot nearly comprehend in real time, making us think, feel, speak and act in ways we may never do otherwise. Judge me at my worst, and your judgment is bound to be incomplete. Throw me away, dehumanize me from your most self-righteous ideology–why? What do you gain? Truthfully, we all lose when we do this to one another. We can do better.

Deep breaths, friends. Love first.