“Let’s Chat About This”

Instagram, @medscape, September 23, 2026

Caption from the Medscape Instagram post in the photo, which I re-shared on my stories:
“Patients who use gray-market retatrutide seemed to achieve roughly half the expected weight-loss benefit relative to Eli Lilly’s clinical trials of the drug, while still experiencing high rates of cardiovascular effects, researchers reported in a preprint study.
“At this time, retatrutide isn’t approved by the FDA and is in phase 3 clinical trials. The company has announced plans to submit for drug approval in first quarter 2027. However, demand for the triple-agonist has surged. Read more about the research by tapping the link in our bio.” Read the Medscape article itself.

Ooo, lots to discuss here friends! Let’s see if I can be thoughtful, informative and concise! I’ll give a brief summary of the Instagram post referenced above, implications I see as a physician, and my conversation with Friend who actually tried retatrutide from the gray market.

Retatrutide represents the next generation of medication for metabolic conditions like diabetes and obesity, and it shows tremendous effectiveness for the latter. In a phase 2 trial published in 2023, the vast majority of study participants lost at 10-15% of their body weight on the highest doses. Interestingly, about a quarter of patients taking placebo also lost 10%, and also experienced a noticeable amount of side effects–but that’s for another post. One phase 3 trial showed just under 2% decrease in hemoblobin A1c (the three month average blood glucose test, which we follow in patients with diabetes, and 2% change is significant) and 15% decrease in body weight at the highest dose.

The study (yet unpublished) referenced in Medscape is fascinating: nference, an AI company that works with clinical entities to convert medical records to de-identified data, mined clinical notes for signs that patients were using retatrutide, even though it’s not FDA approved and cannot be formally prescribed (and thus not yet monitored or tracked in any accountable way). Some exerpts:

“Unlike most retrospective observational studies, which start from a prescription or pharmacy claim, the researchers used large language models and de-identified electronic health records (EHRs) from US academic medical centers and health systems to capture the complete clinical note history of patients taking retatrutide.

“’Retatrutide isn’t an approved product, so it has no national drug code, no pharmacy claim, and no structured prescription record anywhere in the health system,’ Soundararajan explained. ‘Evidence about who is taking it exists only in the physician narrative in the form of free text in clinical notes.’

“Using the nference AI platform, the researchers retrieved the full clinical-note history for every patient whose record mentioned the drug and adjudicated three outcomes: whether the patient actually took the drug; where they obtained the drug; and when they started taking the drug. A clinician manually re-reviewed 320 randomly sampled extractions against the source notes. Exposure classification was 99.8% accurate and supply route was roughly 90% accurate.

“Analyses showed a rapidly increasing use of nontrial products purported to contain retatrutide, with a 1.8-fold increase per quarter from October 2023 through March 2026.

“Weight loss among the 89 retatrutide trial participants was 15.5% at 6-12 months, closely approaching the observed 16.9% mean weight loss across the retatrutide and placebo arms at 80 weeks after treatment initiation in TRIUMPH-1-4 (weighted average).

“In contrast, compounded retatrutide users lost 7.2% body weight at 6-12 months, less than the 15.5% observed in the retatrutide trial cohort and comparable to the weight-loss achieved among matched tirzepatide users (7.7%).

“A significant increase in heart rate was observed at 3 months for both the retatrutide trial cohort (+4.3 beats per minute [bpm]) and the compounded retatrutide cohort (+2.5 bpm), which was not seen in the matched semaglutide or tirzepatide cohorts.

“The retatrutide trial cohort also showed numerically higher, but not statistically significant, rates of three-point major adverse coronary events (MACEs) vs matched tirzepatide users (relative risk [RR], 1.77) and semaglutide users (RR, 1.02), with similar findings for expanded MACE vs tirzepatide (RR, 2.03) and semaglutide (RR, 1.25).

“Limitations included the observational nature of the study, which precludes proof of cause; short and uneven follow-up (median roughly 3 months in the retatrutide arms vs 6 months in comparators); and index dates derived from notes rather than dispensing records.”

See below for screen snips of results from my Google search, “get retatrutide online.” Online pharmacies like HIMS and Ro, which provide compounded versions of FDA approved weight loss drugs, do not provide retatrutide. Most of the hits were peptide sellers, though platforms like Ro and Midi look like they give information on how to seek the medication through research trials.

I spend an increasing proportion of my practice discussing and dispelling medical misinformation. It eats all kinds of time, but I welcome it because I learn so much, and my practice is sturctured such that I have the time, which most doctors do not. I learn what my patients are seeing, hearing, and thinking. We look up evidence together, and I get to explain how I vet information: sources, physiology, rationale, conflicts of interest, meaningful outcomes, and the balance of benefit, cost, and risk. We learn together and I earn trust. My perspective shifts and I gain flexibility while hewing close to strong medical ethics and high academic and public health standards. I was both interested in and validated by Dr. Karl Nadolsky’s Instagram story, so I shared it.

My gym friend commented, “Let’s chat about this,” and now blog readers and I all get to benefit from the follow up. Friend has agreed for me to share our conversation with a few key quotes here.

Friend: “I tried grey market Reta and had zero results. zero. 16 weeks, titrated up doses. Actually gained weight and body fat. Mentioned it in a few body building and CrossFit forums and others had similar results with the Chinese labs products like Reta.
Turns out, from those who sent the products out for lab testing, that there’s enough of the product in the vials to show that the actual chemical formula is present, but it’s severely underdosed to what they’re selling… The TRT [testosterone replacement therapy] clinics are selling Reta for over $300 for a 3ml vial of 15mg/ml. That’s down from $750 a few months ago. The Chinese grey market sells them for $35-$50 per vial. So gym bros, who are already spending on memberships, protein, supplements, and testosterone see the cheap prices and jump on them… One of the more popular online forums for gym bros is called “steroid source talk”, and there is where thousands of contributors share results and product reviews. There’s even links to vendors that have proven to have decent quality product.”

Let’s take a moment here. What do we notice in ourselves when we read this? What assumptions do we make, and what do we judge, especially?

Whenever I talk with a patient or friend about these things, especially someone with first hand experience, my attitude softens significantly.  It’s not unlike my conversations with Red voting friends.  I have my biases and convictions about public health, evidence-based medicine, affordable healthcare, etc., and they have theirs.  I also care a lot about connection and relationship, which only occurs with openness, curiosity, and humility on both sides.

I messaged my friend, “It’s all so fascinating. I’m so interested in the motivation, the drive to seek these things.  What’s at the heart and bottom of it, what need does it meet?  Our culture is evolving so fast and so much of it feels mindless and numbing to me, like the worst of human nature is behind the wheel (collectively) too often.”

He answered, “Follow the marketing, in my opinion.  It targets a specific demographic.  Middle aged men, who work out tirelessly, are fathers, business owners, husbands, and are simply frustrated and aggravated with their current progress or results.  They’re lifting weights constantly and not getting stronger.   They’re dieting daily, tracking macros, eating whole organic foods, but are still appearing soft, and aren’t shedding stubborn fat that would come off easily in their 20s or 30s.  The marketing is targeting a specific population demographic that has a ‘problem’, …self-perceived or not, and offering a ‘solution.’  …These men… are essentially desperate to see better progress, and (the companies) prey on that vulnerability.  One of the most successful clinics in Chicago uses the phrase ‘get your mojo back’ on all their ads.”

Me: “…I’m thinking it’s similar for women…cultural expectations and pressures to stay young, beautiful, etc. *sigh*”  [And now that I re-read, this intersects with last week’s post about pathologizing the normal, making women expect that they should not have to feel or experience the changes of menopause, that it can somehow be eradicated…]  “I think our culture really fears aging and losing function.  This intersects with how we don’t value our elderly, as if they have nothing to contribute.  It’s all very complex and ties into our individualist, money-driven culture traits, too—very American, or at least Western.  I often find myself comparing and contrasting this mindset with how I experience Chinese and Eastern culture, which is very much more respectful of elders and, in my observation, a lot less fearful of aging.”

In the end, my friends, what is truly worth our time, money, and energy?  What do we want and what are we willing to spend, sacrifice, and risk to get it?  At the end of life, what will really have mattered, and what will we look back on and wish we had let go or held onto better?  What fears does the culture amplify for others’ (financial) benefit?  How can we each and collectively resist such nefarious actors, and be ourselves agents of integrity, connection, wellness, self-efficacy, and grace?

I never expected that sharing an Instagram story would provoke such a dive into emerging pharmaceuticals and their ‘gray market’.  But I’m not at all surprised that it opened a respectful and connecting conversation with a new friend.  It reinforces to me the possibility and potential for connection in any forum, on any platform, if we are willing to engage humbly as fellow humans. Let’s spend our precious time, energy, and resources more intentionally on one another, yes?

Transitions OMG

Photo courtesy of J. Stahlhut, September 7, 2026, near Georgetown, Colorado

What changes move you today?

It’s leaf peeping season in the Rockies; I will go eagerly back to Summit County, CO next weekend for aspens and friends–can’t wait! Hoping to get lots of photos to use here in the coming weeks. This is my 799th post–let’s see what I can capture for #800!

This made me laugh while scrolling Facebook today:

Baaahahahahaaaa TRUTH ;P

Summer to fall, youth to maturity. The Fourth Turning. Everything changes. How do we meet it all? What choices do we make?

Hubs decided this summer that we will replace the carpet in the whole house. The kids dutifully cleared their rooms before going back to school–it looks so sad, like they’ve moved out. My mental load increases the closer we get to installation, as 90% of the stuff in the rest of the place is mine and I must now clear 20 years of living off the floor and out of the closets–big lift for packrat me. I know I will be happy when it’s over and the process has already illuminated so much, for better or worse. I am who I am, have been so forever, with remarkable consistency, o.m.g. But after this project I may likely reorganize and reset, decluttered and refocused. Looking forward to it (but I’ll complain about it in the meantime). Makes me think about other things that are the same and also changing–my favorite paradox.

What have you noticed about menopause lately? I bet you hear or see something about it a lot more often now than ever. I wrote my most focused piece on it two years ago this week, which I still share with patients, but I really need to update it, as the landscape around this life transition has itself shifted significantly even since then. It’s still great that women’s health gets so much more attention and discussion now, no question. We have also swung well into pathologizing the normal in a lot of spaces, where unqualified influencers make money by sowing fear and mistrust of legitimate medical science and doctors in women of all ages. It’s all part of a larger societal transition, no? Social media has given everyone equal access to express and sell anything on various public platforms with little if any accountability. Menopause is a vastly different social experience now compared to even five years ago, let alone a generation.

Speaking of which, how is Gen X menopause different from that of our mothers? For many of us it hits when our kids are about a decade younger than we were when our moms went through it. We had much better access to birth control, and many of us delayed childbirth while getting our careers off the ground. So while our moms’ menopause happened after we were off at college or beyond, we’re going through it with teens and kids still at home–a very different, and I would argue more difficult, scenario. We are also the largest generation of working moms, primary breadwinner moms, and executive moms. We will or have hit our professional pinnacle around middle age, many in male-dominated fields, right when our adolescent kids’ brains and behavior devolve into chaos and our own bodies stage the second most significant physiologic revolution of our lifetime. Oh and don’t forget that our parents are also in their seventh or eighth decades of life, another pivotal transition that we also attend.

So to my fellow perimenopausal sisters: Holy moly, we are HEROES! Not only are we living every day in our own involuntary bodily transitions, but we’re doing it in a period of social and generational transition that is more complex than any timeframe to date. If you’re reading this and you have a woman leader anywhere in your life (and believe me, you do, even if she doesn’t have a formal title or designation), just thank her now. She’s holding all kinds of shit together and probably making it look easy.

What other monumental transitions do you observe now? What transformations? As we move from summer to fall in the Northern Hemisphere, entering the season of harvest and impending equinox, how do we feel and what do we need?

Multiple coincident and intersecting transitions can feel like a maelstrom. Can we find a quiet and stable center within it? Can we cultivate that dynamic balance that allows us to move more fluidly, with less friction and drag through it? What serves as our rudder, that which reliably stabilizes us on our life course, despite the inevitable weather changes? I know what mine are, and writing this post helps me reidentify and reinforce them.

Everything changes. Some things remain the same. May we always maintain clarity about the paradox of both, and exercise our agency to transition ever toward our most aspirational selves in each phase of life.

The Languages We Speak

愛 Love, written by me in eyeliner brush pen on Daughter’s hand

“…the medial aspect of my proximal left anterior forearm…”
–Me, describing where I would place the tattoo of my matrilineal surnames to Daughter.

What languages do you speak?

I speak American English and Mandarin with a Taiwan 外省人 accent. I am fluent in both but only literate to an early primary school level in the latter. In a previous medical practice I had so many Spanish speaking patients who were willing to teach me, that by the time I left if the patient knew a little English and the problem was not too complicated, I could get through an entire clinic visit without an interpreter. I had a long chain of Post-It notes in my office of words and phrases they had taught me.

Son and Daughter grew up with internist and orthopaedic surgeon parents so they speak a little medicine. Daughter spent five weeks learning archeology and osteology this summer, so her fluency in anatomy has improved–hence my description above. It’s just the most efficient and accurate way to describe the body part. Quick tutorial:
–Closer to central mass of body is proximal, farther is distal.
–Orienting left/right, closer to center is medial, farther away is lateral. For the hands, anatomical position assumes palms facing forward (anterior), so pinky side is medial, thumb side is lateral.
–Front of body is anterior, back is posterior.
–Closer to the head is superior; closer to the feet is inferior.
–Ventral is belly side, dorsal is back side (so back of the hand is dorsal but weirdly, top of the foot is also dorsal–which those fluent in anatomy already know!).
–Rostral is toward the head, caudal is toward the sacrum (tail).

How fun to talk shop with my kid!

It got me thinking again how bonding it is to share jargon. Consider any profession. We can go anywhere in the world and assume we can work with anyone in our field simply because we all speak the language of our discipline. It’s a built-in connection that precedes our acquaintance, that bridges other language and culture barriers. How cool is that!?

It all made me wonder what other languages I speak.
Here is a partial list, in rough order of verbal fluency:
Medicine (especially internal medicine and orthopaedics)
Biology
Chemistry (organic more than others)
Exercise/fitness
Nutrition
Volleyball
Mahjong
Pens
Paper/stationery
Writing
Psychology
Romance
Bread/sourdough
Audiobooks
Pottery

I also speak Relationship. I am highly fluent and literate verbally. But this language calls for and forth our greatest capacity for nonverbal communication, no? Huh. I love that.

Wanna know what languages I do not speak? This was fun to list too:
Sports other than volleyball (though I did learn once how to spot a moving pick in basketball)
Makeup
Skincare
Music (though I appreciate it greatly)
Pop culture
Fashion (though Daughter has taught me much about classic designers)
Money/finance

Aside from a lighthearted and fun reflection on Sunday afternoon while procrastinating housecleaning, the intersecting concepts of language, communication, and connection just make me shake my head in awe and wonder. How many more languages could I learn in this lifetime? I am convinced this is how people stay young and live longer: lifelong stimulation and learning, connection with and integration of the novel and interesting that brings us closer to our fellow humans. It could be anything!

Aspire to global human polyglotism, my friends!

A Five Year Plan

The Lodge at Whitefish Lake, Whitefish, MT September 2025

It’s been a dense few weeks, friends! Or a dense year, maybe, as these blog posts appear late more often now than in a while. Life! I’m okay with it; eleven years is a long time to maintain a project that was only meant to last one. I’m just happy to be here! Family came in last weekend, and I’m about to fly myself tonight, so this post will serve for two weeks. Hope everybody is well and happy!

Daughter and I signed up for a pottery class back in June, 12 weeks ago, I realize today. It took a food twelve hours to call forth the muscle memory from 26 years ago when I made over 400 pots, and now I’m making progress again. The first batch yielded 27 pieces, teaching me how the glazes behave when layered. By the end, barring catastrophe, I will have over 50 creations to use and share this time. See below for photos!

I recently saw a patient who will retire in the coming year. Their annual exams brought us both warm connection over the years, and we agreed that they are as healthy as they could be on the threshold of this life transition. At the end of the day they asked me to include some parting advice for the next five years, a new request for me. How fun! Now I wonder what I’d write for any patient when I see them (potentially) for the last time. What would I write for myself? For the kids? My parents?

What advice would you write to yourself and your loved ones for the next some years? For your leaders? For our legislators and judiciary? How do you already think and communicate in these terms?

I listened to Simon Sinek’s The Infinite Game again yesterday and today. He writes in terms of business and professional leadership, but his premise of an infinite mindset applies to how any of us may choose to live. Inspiring. One of the reasons I get behind on the blog is that I’m writing Love Letters to Patients (LLTP) every week. Every time I think I will address their medical concerns, I end up writing about their life, their relationships, and their impact on me… and my aspirations for them–for us all. I intend to edit and organize after one full year; that will be Book. Can’t wait to share it with you all. Meanwhile, I think this extemporaneous ‘five year plan’ may give you a taste of what that bigger project may feel like. What think you? 🙂


OK so in case I don’t see you next year (or ever again! 😦 ), you asked for my advice for the next five years.  AWESOME, this will be my first time writing something like this, let’s see what emerges ! 😀

  1. Continue to prioritize the most important things to you–the people and activities that give your life meaning.  I think you are already very good at this, and after retirement you will have time, energy, and resources to engage and invest even more, no?  How fulfilling!
  2. Physical fitness will be important. I love John’s advice of using gym time to fill in the small gaps in lower body strength that you may not get from your usual activities.  We discussed the ways you can tell if you’re still fit–getting up and down from the floor or low chairs/stools, feeling confident that you can embark on any new physical activity without limitation (hiking, skating, playing a new sport), etc.  Functional movements in the gym are key for this: forward lunges approximate going down the stairs.  Squats are getting up from a low chair.  Deadlifts are bending over and picking up something from the floor.  It’s the eccentric movement–the controlled deceleration–that is key for fall prevention: Think walking downhill quickly without hyperextending, torquing, or losing balance in your ankles and knees.  
  3. Stay open to learning anything.  Hang out with curious people who know different things from you and are generous with sharing.  Say yes to trying new things.  Spend time with folks from all generations.  I really think this keeps us young–openness, curiosity, exposure to and engagement with novelty, and just growing our neural networks in any possible way–visual, auditory, tactile, intellectual, emotional, and in movement!
  4. Assemble your medical pit crew, if needed.  You have a primary care doctor, and you have us at Exec Health for exercise and nutrition advice once a year.  Events may lead you to need medical specialists in the future, eg physical therapy, personal training, talk therapy–who knows?  But finding *your people* in each of these domains, and connecting them whenever possible so they may compare notes and coordinate care, will give you all more connection and improve outcomes, in my opinion.
  5. Vet medical and health information in the public domain with a very critical mind.  Sadly right now, that includes information coming from the federal government.  Avoid influencers and even medical professionals who are selling products or services for very high prices.  Look at financial relationships between public figures and the products they recommend.  The number of non-evidence based, fear-mongering, capitalist health and wellness businesses increases every year, and I have yet to vet one that I recommend.  Review things with your doctor before you pay for anything she did not recommend herself.
  • I think that’s pretty good general advice–not just for you but for us all…  Thank you for stimulating the thoughts!  Please tell me what you think and if you want me to add/address anything else.
First pottery haul in 26 years. Not all beautiful; every one gratifying.
My best vessel and handle yet!
Accidental finger dents turned into a cute flower, which may be my signature hereafter
Waxy white over blue; two intended for the Ethos kitchen
The upside down ones are mine. Can’t wait to glaze them all!
Practicing for more mugs–learning how much clay and how to make a good cylinder first.
Also hoping to get at least a few ramen bowls out of the lot.

53 and Counting

Milestones, transitions, philosophical thoughts
Insights, revelations, letting go of “I ought”s
Could’ve sat for a couple hours
Writing them to share
Instead I did what moved me
No fuss or fanfare

Both kids home, one flew back from overseas
All on the same page, just hangin’ with ease
What to do for dinner? Should we go shop?
Ooo, cook together with a movie on
Then a round of mahjong
The best birthday evening before both kids are gone

I have *adult* children, O. M. Gee.
I’ve come a long way, non-fuckup mom me.
Like my own MaBa, I will always be here
Cheering and loving them both every day
For their hopes, dreams, and successes galore
For life to bring oodles of love and connection their way

So much yet to do in this lifetime, teeheeeee
How many more branches might grow on my tree?
“No longer stupid, not yet infirm”
Is still the mantra I quote with great joy
Who knows what chances to learn and explore
Might emerge and allow me new skills to employ?

This poem already causes us all too much pain
But kinda fun to try my hand at it again
I’ll stick to prose, not to worry, my friends
Just wanted to write something down on this day
To see what emerged here as summer ends
What have I, approaching mid-50s, to say?

It’s kind of a lot, and it can all wait
Because at this age when it gets late
Sometimes ya just gotta get ready for bed
The deep thoughts will save for another day
Oh and I have dough yet to be shaped
So just wanted to check in and say

Wishing you all so much peace, joy, and love
That any adversity may be borne with fortitude and grit
That you never feel alone or defeated (for long)
That your self-efficacy and confidence take turns at the wheel
With humility and connection riding shotgun
And who cares if the last stanza of your poem rhymes FFS
Life is too short to make everything perfect

Onward, my people. Celebrate ourselves and one another!