Mind Your Body by Nicole Sachs

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“Where does resentment live in your body?”

I thought it was in my gut, maybe somewhere around my liver or gallbladder, but that’s not where I felt it. I rooted around and found it today, somewhere in my chest and limbs, thanks to a beginning embodiment meditation guided by my wonderful new friend and coach Kelly Maher. Not only did I willingly meet my resentment in my body, I had a whole (if brief, thank God) conversation with it, attempting to reconcile its existence despite its apparent detriment to my well-being. Amazing. As the meditation progressed I noticed changes in physical sensations, and thoughts I had met countless times before now occurred in a brand new context of observation and potential understanding.

Kelly says we will likely do some parts and inner child work in the coming weeks. Yikes. And bring it! When the student is ready, the teacher will appear, they say. How funny, it was almost exactly a year ago that I wrote here,
“‘I’ve done all the work I can do with shovels. Now I need drills.’
“Astute and honest friend: ‘Or brushes.'”
In that post I listed books that had advanced my inner work at that time:
“Years ago — The Dark Side of the Light Chasers, Debbie Ford
Why We Love, Helen Fisher
Existential Kink, Carolyn Elliott, PhD
The Body Keeps the Score, Bessel van der Kolk, MD
Romancing the Shadow, Zweig and Wolf
The Self-Led Internal Family Systems Workbook, Tanis Jo Allen, LMSW, ACSW”

How fascinating when the same ideas recur, but in a slightly different light, with new perspective, for new and continued growth! This year I listened to Mind Your Body by Nichol Sachs, recommended by one of my dietician colleagues when we discussed yet again the things other than hunger that drive humans to eat. I have considered myself a student, but definitely no expert, of mind body medicine for my entire career. The whole concept is so much more mainstream now than 30 years ago, which I celebrate. Sachs writes from decades of psychotherapy experience and introduces her specific journaling method, Journal Speak, to address chronic pain. You can substitute any physical symptom for pain and the method can still apply. I wondered, can you apply it to chronic emotional or mental states? Chronic stories we tell (about resentment, abandonment, etc), chronic bothersome thought patterns? I bought the book in print intending to try the method myself (I write every day anyway), but never got started. I even invited my colleague to do it together as buddies, and still it went nowhere. The pattern I notice here is that I need another human to hold my hand, guiding me and making me feel safe to do this deep, loving, gentle but probing inner work.

Sachs’s book is an easy read/listen. The language is accessible while the content is both academic and applicable in real life. She shares patients’ stories (with permission) and even her own daughter’s ‘testimony’ of the effectiveness of the process.

The mind and body are not separate; I think most of us understand this intuitively, but fail to recognize how the connection manifests, as the signs are myriad and often intersect with co-existing physical problems. But all physical sensations are not only physical in their deep origins, and our nervous system puts distress in bodily places to protect us from threats to our survival, both real and perceived. Mind Your Body can help anyone understand the mind body connection more clearly, demystifying patterns that conventional medicine too often can neither explain nor resolve. The Journal Speak method costs only time and energy and is totally autonomous. Sachs also hosts a podcast and there is a Journal Speak paid membership community where people can connect and share their journeys. I have no financial or other interests in Sachs’s practice or business. I just appreciate her work and know it can help a lot of people.

What are your mind body stories and who understands and validates them?

Bane Bloom by Sharon Lynn Fisher

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Mug gifted from Sister when I graduated med school, 1999

Thanks to the Google random number generator, tonight you get reflections on Book #95 from the 2026 list: Bane Bloom by Sharon Lynn Fisher.

The blurb:

A botanical illustrator in Victorian England uncovers a country garden’s secrets in a fantastical novel of dark enchantments by the author of Tea & Alchemy.

In 1850, Catherine Gray, a botanical illustrator from London, travels to a remote estate in the Lake District to catalog and paint the specimens thriving in a mysterious glasshouse garden. The most bewildering find is a water lily that somehow alters its appearance. Nearly as puzzling is Thomas Bane, the brooding groundskeeper, who closely guards the estate’s secrets—including the disappearance of Catherine’s predecessor.

The mystery deepens when Catherine discovers the diary of Prudence Bane, Thomas’s late mother, which contains revelations about the odd flora and its hold on a family touched by madness. The more she uncovers, the more the line between fantasy and reality—and superstition and fact—begins to blur.

Unable to trust her own thoughts, Catherine draws closer to Thomas, her only anchor in this strange place. But even he can’t fully protect her from the house and his otherworldly family. Only Catherine can break the Bane family’s cycle of heartbreak…but first she’ll have to confront her own.

My review:

Review of advance copy received from Author
[FIVE STARS]

Typically excellent; highly recommend!
I have only known Sharon Lynn Fisher’s writing since January, when I listened to Tea & Alchemy, because Marisa Calin and Shane East perform it. Since then I have listened to Grimm Curiosities, Salt & Broom, and now Bane Bloom, thanks to an Advance Listener Copy from Sharon herself (thank you, ma’am!). I can now write with authority: Sharon writes the MOST satisfying and engaging slow burn, low spice romances! Catherine, like Sharon’s other heroines, exudes honest, humble smarts and spunk, and follows her intuition to connect with (super)nature. Thomas, not quite tormented but cranky with a heart of gold, could live alone forever, but that soft metal melts eventually, to all our collective delight. This story delivers mystery, intrigue, and real human emotion, with just enough angst to engage for binge without torturing us. Bronwen Price does a loving and beautiful job with the vast majority of the narration, and Will Watt’s deep, warm timbre gives Thomas’s voice something to look forward to. I will soom embark on the rest of Sharon’s backlist–can’t wait!

I have since finished The Absinthe Earl, and will continue with The Raven Lady, Books 1 and 2 of The Faery Rehistory Trilogy.

*Sigh* I might attribute my mild obsession with romantasy in 2026 to the Crowns Trilogy by Nicola Tyche, which I have listened to at least six times in its totality, and the last book alone, War Queen, at least nine, since this time last year. It’s possible that I just wanted to escape reality in this year that began with ICE murdering regular people on the street and sliding into various other atrocities and disgraces with almost no meaningful accountability at the highest levels of US government.

These books highlight the best in humanity (in contrast to the news), wherein characters face mortal threats from outside actors, and must find in both themselves and each other the courageous vulnerability and calm rationality to problem solve and save their communities. The romances bloom from emergent mutual admiration, each hero/ine of the other’s perceptiveness, knowledge, intelligence, and fortitude. They are complementary equals; the heroes respect their heroines above all. That’s true in Crowns also. Maybe that’s what really draws me to these stories, as the current US federal administration dominated by toxic white men all but denigrates women. All the more satisfying that so many women (and women physicians!) were just elected to Congress.

From Facebook, cannot remember source, sorry!
Also according to Google, there are currently 20 physicians serving in the 119th Congress, 4 senators and 16 representatives. They are almost all white, and there is one woman among them.

Last night I wrote about how romance can teach us self-love. Tonight I highlight romances that teach us mutual respect and value intellectual acumen in women and emotional attunement in men. Romance is the best selling book genre year over year, and yet we ignore its significance. Maybe if we paid more attention to these quintessentially human stories, we could treat ourselves and one another better and make the world better for it.

Romance and Self-Compassion

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Alexis Hall and everything you need to know about how to engage with them

What parts of your personality are both fundamentally you and also shameful?

Maybe shameful is too strong or not the right word. But what unique and fundamental aspects of your personality also cause you to dislike yourself? Maybe they cause you to feel like a misfit among ‘normal’ people. Or so few people relate to (or even reject) this part of you that you hardly share it? Maybe it’s a behavior pattern that puts people off a little, but you can’t help it because it’s just who you are and you refuse to deny or repress your core self.

I wonder how Alexis Hall would think of what I’m about to write, but I hope they would know it’s written respectfully and out of admiration, curiosity, and exploration.

Never After, Something Extraordinary, and For Real

In the three books of theirs that I have devoured multiple times (highly recommend you do, too) and written about twice (Never After and Something Extraordinary), all of the main characters are both irrepressibly authentic and at least somewhat self-loathing. Every one of them finally comes to accept and love themselves more fully with the help of their respective love interest, often having to be told and shown multiple times, both subtly and forcefully, how valuable they are.

Hall writes so lovingly and relatably about the human condition of self-criticism, how organically it occurs, how insidiously, and how it shows up in all of our relationships, not just romantic ones. I hope every one of us has felt at least partially saved by a supportive other who shows up and loves us for our strengths and gifts before we fully perceive and celebrate them. How lucky if it was a parent or teacher early in life, or a life partner who continually reminds us? But what about those parts that we have yet to reconcile?

Self-Compassion, Kristin Neff

I listened to Kristin Neff’s Self-Compassion years ago and highly recommend it. She definitely leads by example and walks her talk. I think I’m still integrating the concepts and practices, and life is so much better. “With self-compassion, we give ourselves the same kindness and support we’d give to a good friend,” says the banner on the website landing page. How did society become so perfectionist and hypercritical? Such a downward spiral, the self-criticism that fuels judgment and criticism of others and manifests in harsh words and harmed relationships. [facepalm]

The Dark Side of the Light Chasers, Debbie Ford

Long before taking up audiobooks or Self-Compassion, I read (or tried to read–never actually finished) The Dark Side of the Light Chasers by Debbie Ford. In her attempt to show us the parts of ourselves that we most loathe, I stepped waist deep in my inner psychological shitpile and picked a fight with Hubs that lasted two weeks. I was too afraid to open the book again then, but maybe I will now? Oh, the gift of living longer and learning about oneself…

I will be forever grateful to Book Club for teaching me the value of fiction, and how it opens us more deeply to both empathy and self-awareness. I get so much more out of the non-fiction I consume when I live vicariously through characters’ lives, feel their emotions so closely adjacent to my own.

I so admire and appreciate authors like Alexis Hall, whose prose can so deftly pierce our armor and open our hearts through lyrical expressions of characters’ utterly vulnerable and quintenssentially human fears and longings. Consuming these stories makes me more compassionate in general, to both myself and others. It reminds me that we are all here to love–to seek it, offer it, receive and share it, and thrive on it. And one of the most empowering things we can do for the world–exponentially so–is love ourselves first.