“You both have multiple journals that are all partially written in?” I asked, feeling vaguely twitchy.
On an online forum where I like to think I’m making new friends, three of us have bonded over our shared love of journals. I wrote to the group last week, “I may have almost as many blank journals as I have books–the potential in them, the invitation to fill them with experience and life–they just make me so happy.” The other two musketeers described their journals of various sizes, shapes, and designs, scattered about their homes. They get written in whenever inspiration strikes.
That idea made me a little uncomfortable—that thoughts and ideas might be strewn about in different books, lying randomly around a home, disconnected, alone! Hence the question above that I keyboard-blurted tonight. I thought at first, “I can’t do that.” Then I realized, I do do that—I have at least 4 journals going at the same time. But I do organize them (not that my friends don’t—I have asked them to clarify). I have a personal one, where I keep all original content. This one has at least three different designs of washi tape tabs, for blog ideas, presentation ideas, and other recurrent themes. One is for work–a record of meetings, tasks, initiatives and their progress. In a third I take notes at conferences or other formal learning. Yet another holds insights from coaching calls and exercises from LOH. I carry at least two, sometimes all, of them around with me every day. It’s common for me to have at least two out and be writing in both of them at the same time–taking notes from a meeting or presentation in one, then writing reflections, insights, and revelations in the other. I often flip them over and write from the back covers, to keep lists and other short, serial records. I attach email printouts and sticky notes, and when I reread I highlight and write in the margins. These are well-used and well-loved books.
In 2010 I went to a Mindfulness in Medical Education retreat. I was physically ill that week with a respiratory virus. But I had been mentally and emotionally unwell for months, turbulent and restless inside. All I could do was ruminate, turning thoughts, conversations, and memories over, raking the same terrain, uncovering nothing new, no insights to show for all that psychic energy spent. On the first night of the retreat we were given some quiet time and a pad of paper. I filled my mug with hot tea, climbed into the bay window, and started writing. For a month I had had inexplicable and persistent cubital tunnel syndrome—inflammation of the ulnar nerve at my right elbow that caused such sensitivity and pain in my forearm that I could hardly stand wearing long sleeves. That night I unloaded the whole of my pent up frustrations onto that legal pad, many pages worth—a total brain dump. I always journaled growing up, and somehow it had been years since I had last penned for myself. I had forgotten how cathartic, how therapeutic, it was. The next morning my arm felt normal. I have kept a journal ever since, and that pain has never recurred.
Another friend mentioned recently that he may leave his house without his wallet or his keys, but he never steps out the door without his journal. I can totally relate! Now I suspect there are more of us than I thought. It’s the most satisfying feeling to have a reliable, accessible repository to record insights, ideas, and discernments, whenever they occur. When I cannot do this—usually when I’m driving—it’s like having to pee until I can get out the journal at the next stoplight (or pull over). It occurs to me occasionally to stop accumulating blank journals. I’ve already set a moratorium on buying yoga pants and washi tape (for now). But if a blank journal calls to me, I will buy it. It’s good for my soul.
It’s heartening to learn there are so many other people who have multiple journals–for different purposes and different moods and intentions. I used to think it was a deficiency that I couldn’t stick with one book and go all the way through, then begin another fresh journal. I’m not all that consistent about writing in any of them, but they give me a sense of the continuity and trajectory of my life.
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It IS heartening, isn’t it? I’m still figuring out my system…It’s a joyfully endless evolution! What I do now works for me now. Who knows a year or five years from now? I’ll just keep figuring it out! 😀
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