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What Do You Protect?

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What does this question mean to you?
What comes to mind first?

Voice actors I admire post about vocal rest and nasal/sinus care regimens, hydration, and air purifiers. Of course this makes sense; they protect the source and tools of their livelihoods.

It comes up with my executive patients often. Of all of their habits in the 5 reciprocal domains of health (Sleep, Exercise, Nutrition, Stress management, and Relationships), which are the keystone practices that hold them up and make it possible for them to handle the myriad pressures and responsibilities they shoulder? Exercise often emerges as a primary method of protecting their mental health as much as physical, so they may continue to withstand the demands of a work culture that actively threatens their health and well-being.

After some particularly insightful exchanges with patients and friends this week, I asked myself the question. What do I need to protect? With the next heartbeat, the answer was my empathy. Fascinating! This also makes sense–as a primary care doctor, I function best when I am fully present and attuned to the person in front of me, listening to their stories and concerns, doing my best to understand their subjective perceptions and experiences. Without empathy, I am both less effective and less fulfilled, both in my work and outside of it.

So what are my keystone habits, and how does protecting and strengthening them affect my ability to attune and empathize?

Sleep: This one is easy; I am a very good sleeper. It’s even easier now that I have decreased my weekly caffeine use by about 85%, thanks to 116 days of a new morning routine. I’m even getting close to seven hours of sleep a night now, much better than before (no more 1:00am blog posts!). I don’t think this directly elevates my empathy, but it definitely improves my mood and mental resilience.
Exercise: I have now maintained a regular and challenging exercise program for 10 years, well documented among the 600+ posts here. Strength, core, and cardio training make me more knowledgeable advising patients on their programs, and earns me credibility. I can empathize with the multiple adverse consequences of injury and the emerging limitations of aging bodies, and advise as both physician and fellow athlete.
Nutrition: This is definitely my achilles heel, my most vulnerable health domain. But maybe this makes me uber-empathetic to my patient’s struggles? Because is there anything our society shames and judges more than how we eat, while simultaneously surrounding us with the least healthy food options in gargantuan portions? We struggle together, my patients and I.
Stress management: Today I can confidently say that I lead by example in this domain, thanks to so many teachers, role models, and books. I can engage in almost any conversation with calm confidence, even when conflict is high. I can tolerate adversity and the attendant difficult emotions with far less agitation than even a few years ago. I recover quickly now. Even when a patient screams profanities at me, I can maintain both my composure and my empathy for their distraught state of mind. And then I can respectfully and diplomatically discharge them from my practice.

Relationships: I have said for a while now that the four domains above serve this one. Self-care habits indicate our relationship with self. How we care for and nurture ourselves influences how we show up to the people in our lives, both personally and professionally, and in public. Our behaviors in all of these realms also indirectly impact relationships between other people in our sphere of influence, know it, like it, want it or not. Without question, it is my relationship practices, internally and externally, that most uphold my empathy.

Quality time and contact in deep connection with my people are absolutely what hold me up, so that I might hold up others. It’s the best self-sustaining cycle, really. I have felt so joyful, so euphoric, so absolutely uplifted for so long but the past year in particular, because I attend to my relationships with intention and dedication. I schedule time to write, call, meet, share, and commune. Every encounter is meaningful and nourishes me, body, mind, spirit, and soul. Even meeting someone for the first time, I can bypass meaningless small talk and easily engage in conversation that connects. Who knows what I might discover about anything just by talking to someone, anyone? With this confidence, every stranger has the potential to be my next good friend, and it makes me practically giddy. As I moved from narrator to narrator at Readers Take Denver, I’m still floored at how effortlessly each conversation, even if brief, dropped into heartfelt resonance and mutual uplift. I will forever remember that day and that event as a shining example of the immense possibility of human connection.

My relationships feed my empathy, compassion, presence, openness, curiosity, and learning, and these practices then strengthen all of my relationships, new and old alike. It is the most rewarding positive feedback loop. I take pride in my emotional presence and observational and psychological synthesis capacities in clinical encounters. My friends also admire these skills that I exhibit, and I hope I model them for the kids. The world needs our best relationship skills now more than ever.

So the important question is not only what do you protect, but why?

What are our functional layers of protection, and what do they serve? In the end, how does it all align with our core values and life purpose? What good does it all do? What contribution does it help us make?

What we protect and why indicate what matters most to us, no?

Of course this could all be one giant rationalization on my part. It’s a very new question to me, and I will ponder it further. Thank you for pondering with me.

What else does it bring up, and where will the next questions take you?

Practicing the Art of Possibility Since 2009

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It’s been 15 years since I attended the second ever Harvard Coaching Conference, where I met Ben Zander and The Art of Possibility changed my life. I reference the book’s concepts and practices regularly on this blog, and have given four copies to friends in the last five months–a spate that catches my attention. With the most recent gift, I was moved to listen again, prepared for yet a deeper, more incisive experience, even after having read and listened countless times already. HA!–this just occurs to me–It may be the very practices from the book that underlie this latest re-exploration. Openness, humility, honesty, creativity, authenticity, and connection–I valued these highly even before 2009, and AofP has reinforced them all repeatedly.

Describing the book to a new friend recently, I focused on the authors’ distinction between our Calculating Self, the one engaged in social norms of measurement, competition, and conventional success, and our Central Self, the honest, inner, relational soul that understands and seeks connection and collaboration that brings deep meaning, joy, and peace. I remember flipping through my print copy sometime last year and thinking wow, I have really internalized these teachings! I pull on the catch phrases often–Give the A, Be a Contribution, Rule #6, The Way Things Are, Be the Board–and the practices they point to guide me daily through circumstances and interactions that would have perturbed me much more a decade ago than they do today. The more I thought about it and spoke to Friend, however, the more I wondered what new and more I’d get out of yet another listen–ready for advanced, deeper practice–because though the slope of the curve may have shallowed, I am definitely still learning; I have Possibility yet to harness!

I feel proud of the work I’ve done to lead with my Central Self. It started before the Harvard conference when I connected with Christine, my life coach, in 2005. At that time coaching was seen as froo-froo fringe activity, as evidenced by the groan and eye roll from my colleague when I mentioned it. So I continued silently after that, learning techniques of open, honest questioning, mind-body query, and honoring peoples’ stories, the unique meaning we each make out of any situation, regardless of how or whether it makes sense to anyone else. I have honed high self-awareness and -regulation of my own stories, appreciating both their partial validity and heavy biases, ready (almost) always to have them challenged, corrected, and nuanced. Showing up from my Central Self, recognizing and lovingly inviting forth others’ Central Selves, has yielded such color, texture, meaning, learning, and connection in my life, that it increasingly defies verbal description. Meeting Lessa Lamb at Readers Take Denver last weekend and feeling this instant resonance, I tried articulating it anyway, and it came out as, “Exponentially Synergistic Cosmic ROCKET FUEL,” which is pretty close!

Now halfway through The Art of Possibility again, the humbling has struck. I am indeed proficient at these skills in multiple domains. I have incorporated the principles seamlessly into patient action plans and public presentations for at least the past ten years, each year more organically and easily. Still, in my most complex and difficult relationships, I have far yet to go. Old narratives and deeply grooved relational patterns stemming from childhood–oh how they persist wih force! Thankfully, I also follow Tara Brach and Kristin Neff, and as my self-compassion grows, so too does my capacity for deeper honesty, acceptance, and advanced inner Possibility work. I vibrate at a high relational frequency, and The Art of Possibility has resonated deeply from the moment I heard the authors speak. The teachings amplify my innate signals of deep human connection, and help me show up increasingly All In, All Me, with courage and conviction, including to the work of the slaying and dissecting my own demons.

–*sigh*–

Part of me regrets not being further along on this self-development journey. I’m already 50 years old, worked with Christine since age 32, and others before her. Even with the turbo boost from The Zanders at age 36 and Simon Sinek, Brene Brown, Adam Grant, and others since, I still swirl at times in patterns of fixation, reactivity, and agitation. The episodes are definitely less frequent, intense, damaging, and prolonged, though, so that’s a win, and I feel my inner peace proficiency accelerating lately.

So, to the practices I return:

The Way Things Are: Be with it all, whatever it is, including how I feel about it. I am competent, maybe even expert, and not yet a master. Learn, practice, train, ad infinitum. Mastery may or may not come; the nature of the work is to persist. I can be at peace with this, with all of it, the way it is, while I work to make it all better.

Give the A: As I do for others, I can give myself grace and compassion for showing up every day to do my best. I see my potential and that of others. I help myself by getting help from others, so that I can help others, all of us together on the journey.

Being a Contribution: Every day, with any and every interaction, I can bring my best self, show up to lift up. It doesn’t have to be big or flashy. Presence, eye contact, listening, reflecting, connecting. People can feel well when they meet me. I can help, and lead by example in this way.

Telling the We Story: This one makes me shiver with Possibility. It’s about seeing us all, every single one of us, as inextricably connected–we all matter to one another and to everything in nature–a complex, adaptive system of systems, the butterfly effect in motion and action. When I remember the We story, rather than feeling overwhelmed, I feel calm, empowered, and purposeful, because just by being a better me, I make the world better.

I hope my friends get as much out of this book as I have, over the last 15 years and for many years to come. The wisdom and application are infinite, as we humans muddle and struggle through our own counterproductive behaviors and conventions. The practices in The Art of Possibility give me the validation, confidence, hope, and conviction to keep sharing, speaking, and loving, every chance I get, even (especially) when it’s hard.

Wishing us all a present, open, kind, and loving week. May we connect meaningfully with our fellow humans, and may that connection both anchor and uplift us all.

Helper Coda: Shane’s Vespa

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Here is an example of helping in the form of allyship, however inadvertent.

Shane East is now back in LA, returned from Readers Take Denver. He posted a video from his Big Deck immediately on arrival, with a little reflection and invitation:

“Now, how I got my arse from home to the airport and back with all my stuff including a 3ft wide banner was on my trusty Vespa. Strapped and wrapped and ready. People are always surprised when I tell them and often think I can’t possibly fit what I do on there. So in honour of that, what things have you been told you can’t do/make work and you fookin’ went and did it and did, indeed, make it work or more than make it work, made it a success??”

Shane often posts videos asking followers questions like this, that occur to him out of his own, real time experience and observation. When a pair of very old shorts finally died, he asked us what’s in our closets that we refuse to part with. He noticed himself having little outbursts while driving, and asked us about our own road rage. This time he’s calling it his ‘Curiosity for the week’. It makes me happy that we seem to have this in common, as my blog posts also often originate from me wondering about something and then writing to invite you all to wonder about it, too (see Helper post yesterday).

So I wonder whether Shane intended for this post to empower women? He certainly knows that his following is predominantly female, but the vibe of his videos is generally lighthearted and fun rather than overt advocacy of any kind. That said, comments immediately arrived showing in no uncertain terms what his women followers have had to overcome to get what they want in life. They were told they could not do sports, join or survive military service, go back to school, have successful marriages and families, much less while working, and myriad other random ‘you can’t’s. Two that came up for me were playing volleyball well at 5’2″, and doing primary care and loving it. I still roll my eyes at these today.

He was told he couldn’t/shouldn’t carry all the things on his Vespa. He knew better. He exercised his own judgment and agency and proved others wrong. And as usual, he turned that awareness outward, offering us all a chance to reflect on our own agency and self-efficacy, despite the naysayers. Phrases that emerged in the comments included, “Watch me,” and, “I’ve never looked back.” I tell the story that writing these brief comments, recalling the struggles overcome, boosted our sense of accomplishment and pride–gave us a little hit of serotonin. I might have sat up a little straighter or curled my lip a little as I typed my response. I imagine all of us standing a little taller in our resilience and independence, with gumption, just considering his question–an effect that, if repeated, informs our presence in greater society. In this way, I see his post as a man using his platform to empower us women, with our own strengths. To top it off, he has responded to just about every comment with words of affirmation and validation, which tells me he cares. He is an ally by nature, and he manifests it by simply being who he is. What a treasure; I’m so proud to call myself a follower.

So what is up with the naysaying, anyway? Simply, we all do it. It’s our own fears, limiting assumptions, and biases that we project onto others (and ourselves). It’s human, and we don’t have to judge it. We can simply accept that it is likely inevitable in most scenarios. That may seem defeatist, but it’s actually empowering in itself. If I understand that your discouragement is about you, not about me, then I am free to *respectfully* ignore it. I can choose to engage in disagreement and debate or politely excuse myself and get on with it. Of course it’s a different story if you actually stand in my way, but if not, then I am less affected by your negativity; I can brush it off, let it go. Neutral awareness and acceptance are my Teflon. At the same time, however, in advanced human connection practice, I can also query your warning and rationale for any nuance and benefit to my perspective. That is an exercise in maturity and strategy, among other things.

So Shane, in his ever cheerful, observant, and curious way, empowers us women simply by asking open, honest questions that help us remember and reinforce our own strengths and ablities. And what I love most about these posts (both his and mine) is that I only came to these conclusions while writing my morning pages today, Day 103. I revised my morning routine after his suggestion in yet another video on January 3. He helps me in so many ways, and I could not be more grateful. Thank you, Shane!